Beyond Whimsical: Subject to Change

I will ever post openly again. I seem to keep bothering people with contradictory words and childish entries. Most of 2009's entries have been placed under custom group filled with classmates and the like. Maybe I'm just waiting for the day that they'll actually think of opening their LJs again and saying hi to me. Maybe it's because I still have family I'd like to inform, and if at any point they'd like to make their own LJs, they're welcome to tell me and I'd just add them to the custom group. I don't really know anymore. I just know that I'm tired of watching what I have to say. I guess honesty is dead. Nowadays, it's better just to moderate everything.

If I ever get into the mood to write fanfic again, I'll post the progress here, public mode. I'll keep things short and simple. That's about all I can say for that.

Oh, and if anyone's affronted by this, you're welcome to kick me off your flist. I've...already given up. I'd just treat you as I normally would if you leave me on your list, but if you think that it's unfair that I can read your posts when you can't read mine, I would understand that. Maybe you don't like how I comment too.

I usually watch what I say. Hell, I always need that extra push when I'm writing an extremely emotional entry. I guess even with that kind of attitude I still end up doing things wrong. Consider this my penance.

Because then I wouldn't feel so damned annoyed right now. D< "Death, how I long to be in your embrace," pretty much sums up whatever I'm feeling right now. Or alternately, "I wonder how advance cryogenics are right now?" I'd really rather not be depressed when the New Year arrives, but when you have the whole household looking to bite your ass right now, I really don't see how I can not be depressed.

*sighs*

War of the Worlds, chapter eleven is almost 7000 words by now. xP I think that at least bears some celebration. I doubt I'll reach 10k (unless a certain someone pushes me to. Haha.) but I do have my fingers crossed. This is, by far, the longest chapter I've ever written. And I don't think I'll ever do this again because I find that I get lost in my own writing. Wahahaha.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to get away from everyone else.

Stay happy, flist.

I was afraid of shutting down my brain too early in the morning so I decided to read a book. (This is due to the fact that I just finished chapter one of the Naruto fic I was working on. P:) That was when I decided to pick up Brandon Sanderson's Alcatraz Versus the Evil Librarians. It's...for lack of a better word, hilariously insane. The plot's pretty normal actually. He basically finds out that there's more to the world than he thought. Blah blah blah. Librarians are evil. Blah blah blah. What's so feckin' great about it? His bitter I'm-the-author-here-so-I-get-to-be-annoying voice which just blabbers on and on about whatever. Seriously. That is just pure epic win. Of course, not many people will appreciate the fact that it's meta-writing but who cares? I sure don't! x3 I guess I just have a soft spot for that kind of children's book. If you're interested, the chapter one excerpt of his story can be found here. You'll probably understand why I like it so much once you've taken a peek. Hell, I wanted to read this book after reading the first sentence of chapter one. P: Thank God for libraries. (Which are places of evil, but I still <3 them)

In other news, I think my leg should be amputated or something! I think the cold killed it. O_O

Alright, so I'll try not to be too depressing in this overly boring monologue of mine. It's almost Christmas after all.

And did I mention that I want the second book of that Alcatraz series like...right now? Haha.

What can I talk about? Other than spending the entire day trying to piss my sister off--I was sitting on the computer chair holding a roll of paper and screaming at her to joust with me--nothing really interesting happened today.

So I'll just talk about the boring stuff!

My sister wants to publish for a Filipino audience. I think it's great because it's contemporary writing, it isn't as deep as most Filipino novels are, and it's fucking damn funny in its own way, especially considering the fact that her main character is blatantly gay. Finally. Something in the Filipino market which I can ACTUALLY read. O_o No offense but, my teacher in Creative Writing gave us some examples of Filipino contemporary writing and it bored me to death. I don't really care about some priest who walks in the rain and decides to do some deep thinking about his sins and how the rain washes everything away.

Or something along those lines anyway. All I can say is: I really can't stand the deep stuff. I can take emotional with a tinge of deep and the right kind of writing style, but other than that? I'm sorry, book, but you're going to the "To Donate" section. We can't really afford bookshelves right now.

Chapter one for the Naruto fic is done, though it's still in the process of editing. Plus, I still have Behind the Mask to do (confrontation scenes are hard) and I'm really hoping to get that done as well in time for Christmas. It's really a proven fact for me that once I have a deadline set in my mind, I am able to write more.

I also want to get some original fiction writing done. Something starting along the lines of, "Nothing really happens to Asian people." Just because. P: (With an old lady going, "You are the Chosen One," in her thick Filipino accent--which usually consists of replacing vowels with other vowels, among other things--and slamming a bootleg copy of some game in front of the heroine's face. :3)

Love you all, flist. <3 Happy holidays.

Mostly because my brain shuts down due to lack of activity at home. P: I swear by it. Without motivation, I can't even wake up for school. Which is why I always use my Math homework as an excuse to wake up early. ^^ Math kick starts my brain so that I can function for the rest of the day. x3

Enough of that! Anyways, I gave one of my friends a back-scratcher for Christmas. :D It looks like a freakin' cat's paw and there's this lever at the bottom which you squeeze (or press down...which ever action you prefer. ;P) to make the paw curl and bring its plastic claws out. Tis fun I tell ya! :3 Everyone wanted to know where I bought it. >D Muwahahahaha.

I've also renewed my love for Hayashiya Shizuru's manga. :3 Those who have read Hayate x Blade (the first volume is out! Go buy it. >D) should also read her other manga, Strawberry Shake Sweet(not to be confused with Strawberry Panic xP), which is just as hilarious! I love it all to bits. <3 In fact, I just saved 31 Strawberry Shake Sweet icons in one of my many folders, and I would definitely use them all if I could. P: Alas, I'm very much satisfied with my icons right now so I'll just use them for something else. Hopefully.

Hayate x Blade is kickass because of the fight scenes, the luverly scenes between the President and her shinyuu (sister-in-arms), and awesomeness incarnate, Ayana Mudo. <3 Strawberry Shake Sweet is squeee-worthy because of the humorous Saeki/Kaoru one-sidedness, Nosebleeding!Julia, BlissfullyIgnorant!Ran, Zlay (the all girl yuri band), and everything else in between.

I really hope Strawberry Shake Sweet is translated as well. :( Then I could buy it too! :D

Now, before I end this woefully short entry of mine, I'd like to show off this poem I wrote for English class! >D Yeyness for Shakespearean moaning! (This is a variant of Juliet's speech about what she would rather do than marry Paris. :3)

( Feeding me poison... )

:D Stay happy, flist.

Blech. >_> And my parents actually bought me a...couch! LOL. xD A sofa bed to be exact. :3 But that isn't really the true reason behind my posting this.

For now...I come here bearing the commentary for War. It's actually pretty embarrassing. ;p And barely understandable because my throat hurts. (It was also pretty rushed.) D8 LISTEN AT YOUR OWN RISK. ( Script + Audio )

I'm eating homemade sushi at the mo'. *munches thoughtfully* It's...ok-ish, mostly because the taste of seaweed's much stronger than that of the egg. >_O

Our sister bought us a PS2 for Christmas. ^^ I know that it's a wee bit too early, but she insisted that we get it over with. We got the older model coz those are cheaper (and I don't really give a damn about how they look. ^^ As long as it works, neh?). That said, I promise to put writing first as a priority over games. *drops hand* I can't say the same for my watching anime. P:

I just realized this but...I keep writing these uberlong entries for some weird reason. D: It's probably because I regard these LJ posts like essays...so they have to be a certain length before I let myself post them. This probably explains why everyone keeps shying away from my LJ. ^^ I always make 'em too damn long with my ramblings. I really have to cut back on that. >_<

So yes. Even though I'm bursting with things to say, I'll shut up now. ^^ Anyway, they're mostly my thoughts about the anime I'm watching which, I am NOT going to recommend to anyone. It's funny and cutesy and I know I'm wasting my time on it...but I can't help myself. D: (Also, my sister likes it so at least we won't have to fight over the computer...seeing as we're both watching it. ^^) I also wanted to talk about the Summoning by Kelley Armstrong but, seeing as I mostly skimmed through it, I doubt that whatever I'd say would have much weight.

Happy thoughts to all of you. ^^

Just watched the movie Resident Evil Degeneration. ^^ The fight scenes were pretty cool but, from the looks of it, they reaaaally aren't into doing normal actions. Like talking to people. >_O Even when people are just walking around, they look like they're limping. (And by people, I do mean people. Zombies are excused from this. xP) And yeah...it was ok-ish, though I'd have to complain about the lack of fight scenes. I was like, staring at the screen in the middle part of the movie and asking out loud, "Where the bloody hell is my gore? I want to see zombies dead, yo! I mean...more dead!" So yes, I mostly enjoyed the first bits and the last bits. Because they were the ones which involved a lot of ass-kicking. :3

And no, I'm not even going to talk about the plot because I don't even understand most of it. xP No wait. I take that back. I'm not even going to talk about the plot because it's already too damn obvious. Doi.

There was also the fact that one of the women in the movie had extremely large boobs. I was gaping at it in the end (the only time it was clearly shown. Snerk.) and they were fucking huge! Talk about proportions, people!

That said, I'm pretty much waiting for the moment when my writing skillz come back to me. The ideas are streaming, I tell ya, tumbling from my head like crazy. From Gunner!Narutos to Oglop omakes...it's really surprising how much my brain can produce these ideas, given that I wasn't even trying. xP Sadly, my talent with writing prose is utter crap so you'll have to forgive me if the fics are taking slow to update. Too damn slow.

Other than that, my day was really nothing to talk about. My teacher in English was teasing me about my grade (disappointed by the fact that I got 95% in her class. D: What exactly are you expecting from me, woman?!) and we read out loud in Math...even if it was supposed to be Silent Reading. >_> Our teacher was reading Harry Potter and kept on asking who the characters were even though she's already read it before. xD Nyahaha. She's just funny that way. Even though she makes us do contest questions all the time just to spite us. *Sighs*

And I won't even talk about PE because I'll only bitch about how whiny some of the girls were. >_> Utter brats. Gaaah.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to sleep. ;P It's 12 AM here.

Oh! And before I go, I'd just like to say that I'll probably end up recording chapter two next week because a) we're going to the mall to buy Christmas presents tomorrow (or later today...whichever you prefer) and b) I seriously need to catch up with my writing.

G'night, flist. Happy thoughts to all of you. ^^

Ok, before I let myself rant, I'd like to say that I wasn't really planning to read Casualties just yet. >_O I've had too much things to do at the mo' but I simply could not resist. For those of you who do wish to read the fic now, GO! This will be a spoiler heavy entry and I shan't spoil you. GO READ THE DAMN FIC. Because it is made of win.( Great Wall of Text... )

Aah, bloody hell. xP It sucks...big time. I recorded some of it last night and the rest of it this morning. >_> People kept interrupting me. It was so freakin' annoying. That said, I do hope you enjoy this despite the crappy quality. xP It was fun while it lasted...though I doubt I'll ever do this again. Not in this lifetime anyway. Nyahahahaha. 8D If you really do want me to continue on doing this, well...you have to convince me. xP Though with the way the whole thing turned out? I doubt you'd want to listen to me moan for another ten minutes. :3

That said, I'd like to thank my sister, Punk Bandit, for voicing Robin. LOL. Her voice is just so hilarious. x3 Though I do wish I made her voice Zero instead. I think that fits her more.  Also, the commentary + bloopers will be posted later on, when I've done it. >_> I need a break. My voice feels funny. (Plus, I was coughing and sneezing at the later part...so the voice ended up weird. xD)

Huh. Things are going pretty slow right now. >_O The forum is dead. Again. (LOL. Am I really the only one who doesn't have a life here?) And I've been looking for a good HP fanfic for the past couple of hours. The Better Man by Laume is pretty good, and I enjoyed how competent everyone was. (Except Dumbledore. XP) I really need more of those fics if I ever want to try my hand at writing HP again. Currently, I have The Lionheart Chronicles Chapter One at a mere 300 something words while The Summoner's Craft Chapter One is at 1500 something. I have yet to start on War of the Worlds because one of my muses is on vacation. *cough*Noreallysheis*cough* And I've decided that I will only start on Behind the Mask once I've done at least one chapter on the aforementioned. In Original Fiction news, I've finished and submitted the short story entitled "Dentist Seer" for the writing contest at school. I doubt I'd win, but well...hope springs eternal, right? Haha. xD I still doubt I'd win but when I wrote it, I had fun, and that's all that really matters to me right now.

Moving on (because I really don't want to bore you with my babble on the stories I'm working on...), I found some software for recording! :D That means I can start working on the audio version of WoW chapter one! Buwahahahaha. x3 Now, people can listen to me babble on incoherently. :3 My English classmates believe I am good at reading out loud (which is why I keep getting the long parts to read in Shakespeare's play Romeo and Juliet >_O) but I'm pretty sure they're just overestimating me. I stumble on my words a lot. Plus, I have a tendency to talk too quickly. I must remember not to rush things.

And yes, I've just contradicted myself by talking more about my fics. I've yet to get a life. Please forgive my boring blather. xD

I've also found a blog which had some of my favorite contemporary poetry written by a Filipino. x3 Hoorah! I've always liked his work. Here's a sample of the first verse:

DEAR STRAWBERRY SUNDAE

By word of mouth I found you first
In the arms of unreality: the sleek,
Shiny counter beaming its eager, newly-
Disinfected smile, the kitchen that never,
Ever smells like one, and of course
The food that tumbles relentlessly
In practiced style, with push button
Ease and electronic pace, in assembly-
Line perfection and quality-controlled grace.

Damnit. Now if only the actual poetry book which had these poems was still in stock. T_T I miss our copy! It always made me feel inspired.

And oh! Oh! 8D I now have volume three of Yozakura Quartet. *massive droolage* I just love Hime's character. x3 *hnuggles book* Her sense of justice and simple-minded innocence makes me want to eat her. No, really.

That said, I must now waltz off to bed to dream up possibilities. Because that's all I really do nowadays. xP

Well...it was mostly involuntary. O_< Dear gods, I hate this damn cold. My nose was working alright at first. There were a few sniffles here and there but that was to be expected. And then some assholes decided to spray their fucking perfume all over the place. >_< Seriously people, do you even read the NO PERFUME signs posted around the fucking damn school? I had such a bad reaction to the perfume that I've been sneezing like crazy for the last two periods of class and could barely concentrate on anything. You arsehats really don't give a damn about the rest of us, do you? Damn it. I even had an effin' migraine and my right ear felt like something bit it. *growls* Sometimes, I just want to burn you lot to the ground.

That said, I had quite a fun day. ^^ Err...yeah. Haha. I went to the mall and indulged myself by buying a set of watercolour tubes. 8D Dear gods, I miss that. Now all I need is some free time, a cup of inspiration, and I'm good to go! *can't wait to paint again* x3

I've also read the first few pages of Robert Rankin's the Witches of Chiswick and damn, it's quite hilarious. I'll always love Terry Pratchett first, but his writing style is really wonderful as well. Here's a quote:

In these days after the days after tomorrow, being slim no longer held sway when it came to looking good. These were now the days of the weighty. That mankind should grow, not only in mental but in physical stature too, was probably an inevitability (although not one that had ever been accurately predicted). But then, the science of prediction had never been noted for its accuracy - not even when the course of future events seemed obvious. (p. 4)

Aaah. My favorite kind of writing style: the formal-sounding smartass kind with a hint of humor that leaves you giggling up a fit. x3 *huggles book* And I haven't even finished chapter one yet. 8D

I've also thought of the plot I'm writing for the school writing contest. xP I doubt I'd win but what the heck? The writing bit's always fun. >3 It's going to be about a guy who just had an appointment from his Dentist Seer. 8D (And it damn well looks like a bleedin' toothpaste commercial in my head, but who cares? I love doin' humour anyway. x3)

So...what's the rest of my flist been up to? ^^?

EDIT: Yeah, I know I could have started a new entry, but I'm lazy that way. 'Sides, this came to me last night so it technically counts as November 24 material. xP

Anyway, I was preparing to go to sleep last night when something came to me. You see, I was thinking about life...and about death. I was thinking about reincarnation, and why it was that we humans were experiencing now and not some former life or some future one. Why is it that we remember this time and place? Does it signify the coming of the end of the world? That we remember this one because we won't be reincarnated again? Was this to be our last life?

I wondered about many things...and as I looked up and met my own dark brown eyes, I came to a rather unsettling realization. I was...human. I was this one entity, trapped in bones and flesh. My eyes took in the disheveled state of my clothes, the weariness in my eyes, my lips cracked and bleeding...I looked so vulnerable. And there was this moment before and after that realization that I felt this detachment from my body. I felt as if I was a mass of thoughts...incorporeal. I felt as if I was staring at a stranger in the mirror. It was all so surreal.

And then I wondered, "Was this how writers feel sometimes?" Because we create these different people in our heads, we create these worlds were certain rules have to apply...we create our own version of life and death. And in that one singular moment before I stared at the mirror, I was...I felt like a bigger entity; I felt as if I was examining things from a different view rather than the human perspective. It was a liberating thought.

And a scary one.

I've always wanted to say that. 8D It's from, I Write Sins not Tragedies? x3 (Yey for random titles?)

Goodness, my whole body is hurting. T_T We had to take a run today and it was feckin' cold outside. And then we had to do other first stuff which further made my back hurt and reminded me of just how stiff I am. I did do better on the run (shaved off one minute from my previous record! 8D Hoorah!) but it was mostly because I was chasing after someone. xP

In other, more exciting news, Yozakura Quartet volume three is going to be out next week. 8D I am soooo going to buy it. Just because of Kotoha. LOL. x3 Twilight is also out, not that I'm interested. O_o Bloody hell, people, is that aaaaaaall you think about? Pisses me off. I think I got into a couple of arguments because I said that the trailer looked gay. And I don't even normally use the word gay, seeing as I find the word itself actually offensive. xP *grumbles on about the stupidity of fangirls*

I haven't started writing on WoW yet. *hides* It's just...whenever I stare at the screen, I can't seem to find the perfect way to start it. O_o Though it'll probably be about Rebecca's training. x3 I love moaning about training. It's like moaning on about PE. 8D Mayhap, I shall steal this computer once I have no one to talk to online and type away in mah bedroom. :3 It's more comfy there. Though my back will say otherwise. *grimaces*

We'll also be getting wireless internet next week! I can't wait for that! It really sucks, having to crowd in one corner of the room. >_< Plus, there's absolutely no privacy whatsoever. D:

I've thought about doing an audio of WoW too, for some time now. :3 I found a site that hosts sound files so now all that's left is for me to make one. x3 Now to look for some decent freeware...

And because I do so suck at blabbering on about my life, I shall give you pics instead! X3 They're not at all that good, but well...I like them. XP And that's all that really matters for me. Buwahahaha.

( Pics. <3 )

I'm currently playing Chrono Trigger for the DS right now, and I  must say, I'm having a lot of fun. :D Of course, I've played it before (try a million times xP) but I still love it to bits. x3 Oh, and here's the kicker: I'mma giving all of the characters names from the people in the forum I go to! 8D Currently I have:

Crono as Kuro (our admin boss is of course the Hero.)
Marle as Sky (because I ship those two. <3 Though I did debate on whether or not to use Tabby's name instead.)
Lucca as Newt (because they're both made of win. *nods*)
Frog as Lan (>D What?)

And for those whom I haven't given a name yet...

Ayla as Tabby (She's the only female character left! Besides, in the original translations, it's been noted that she's bisexual. 8D Nothing at all to do with her caveman speech. Yep. *nods*)
Robo as...me? (I'm still not sure about that. xD)
Magus as Rick (Phelan doesn't quite fit. D: And I'm pretty sure I can rename this guy! I think...)

Oh, and just because...Retranslation bit:

Ayla: Called Ayla.
   Ayla like strong men.
   So Ayla like Cro.

Marle: G, get away from her, Crono!


Lucca: You've been found suitable to be Ayla's,
   Crono......

Ayla: Yous strong too.
   Ayla like strong people.
   Even if man, even if woman.

Marle: What's THAT supposed to mean?

Lucca: I, I'm not interested in that sort of thing!

In other news, we watched a video about twenty years ago on the issue of homosexuality and discrimination. T_T It made me tear. Well...mostly afterwards when I was walking home...and it was raining...and I had seen Mr. Dead-Squirrel again...>_> I'm overly emotional ok?! D: Though my sister tells me otherwise because I barely bat an eye when a character in a story dies. o_O ( I normally don't act very emotional in front of others. xP Would ruin my image. LOL.)

Also, we got the report cards for the first half of the semester! ;D A's on all four subjects. Buwahahaha. 8D *is a total nerd* I must celebrate! Somehow! x3

Oh, and I'm still thinking about Morrigan's character (from WoW). I'm not sure what kind of person she'll be though I might make her a lot like Hime from Yozakura Quartet. :3 That no-nonesense kind of attitude and all. 8D Speaking of which...I wonder when the third volume will be released...

Now, off I must go to return overdue library books (my way of donating to the library? *takes out the coins from wallet*) and write part two of the oglop omake! What it'll be about, I have absolutely no idea! :3

Just remembered something...I need something pink for tomorrow! D: Tis anti-bullying day and I don't have even a single article of clothing that has pink in it. xP Actually, people have commented that I wear a lot of greys. LOL.

Because I'm evil that way. :3 That said, I absolutely love that icon! 8D

Movin' along...I'm pretty much stuck right now. I'm staring at the screen, trying to write TLC (HP fanfic rewrite) and I just completely fail at it. O_o Dear gods, I am so damn tired of Harry Potter right now. Unless someone can link me to a good fanfic in that fandom, I'mma moving out 'til further notice. It's good ol' WoW for me until I figure out what it is that I'm exactly planning for the HP one.

Bwahahaha. It also doesn't help that I promised Newt I'd write an omake for her. Two if other people (besides Gramps) actually review my fic. x3 Oh man. I think this is the first time I'm actually going to win a bet! 8D I giggle in anticipation for my prize...until I realize that I never did ask anything from her if I happen to win. D: Egads! I completely forgot! Gaaaaah.

Speaking of which, just the other day I wanted to wake up at five in the morning to say hello to Newt who didn't have any classes that day. I woke up at quarter to five and decided to just close my eyes for a while but had fallen asleep. Thankfully, I had dreamed about having to go and talk to Newt online. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have woken up again! LOL. xD Dreams can be useful after all! Who knew?

OH! And and! Yesterday, we were waiting outside the Math classroom when I see Irene shuffling along. I grabbed her hands and started shouting sweet nothings in her ear. x3 She tried to make me let go but my love for her was strong! Also, I had smeared imaginary super-glue on my hands to make sure that it would stay where they were. Bwahahahaha. That was just so tear-worthy. :') I must do that again sometime.

And during Computer class I heard two people talking about their weekend. In a completely non-chalant serious voice, I said, "Well, I made love with a frog."

x3 I do so love my insanity. It amuses me so.

And I would have posted this entry sooner if it were not for the fact that I was also bullied (err...right) into doing all of the drawings for our project. So yes. Blame my internet-absence and lack of sleep to them. >_o Argh.

I still see the squirrel sometimes. It's so utterly mutilated now; its fur shredded into tiny bits and the flesh underneath ripped apart with such ferocity. I cry for it sometimes. :(

DAMNIT! I want to learn how to speak Japanese. T_T Or alternately, even just to understand it would make me a very happy young woman. *nods* I don't even give a damn about learning the kanji and whatnot. I just want to know what the hell they're saying! Gaaah.

...Why? Oh, because I want to listen to the Hayate X Blade Drama CDs. D': And watching anime without the subtitles would be nice too but-but aaaaagh! Why couldn't they make an anime out of this?! It would be soooo epic. :(

Fangirl tendencies aside, I'm still feeling a bit drowsy despite the fact that I've just woken up from hours and hours of sleep. x3 Aaah. It's so good to just sleep. Relieves all the stress. 8D I just wish I could get some good dreams this time 'round. Most of what I get are rather...troubling.

I still haven't sent back a better reply to Newt (sorry, Newt! I fell asleep the minute I went home and woke up to find my sister using the other computer. Which had all of my notes and whatnot in it! D<) and I still haven't written an omake just yet. Dear gods, I just feel so tired right now. :( It didn't help that I had to stay in school today. (And it wasn't even my effin' detention!) I hate me and my Gentleman complex. :( I just can't resist helping a damsel in distress. Even if it means having to tell her step by step what she actually had to do. And get a head ache out of it.

I thought I might do something different tomorrow so as soon as I finish the omake I have to do and the reply for Newt, I'mma go and watch El Cazador. I'm pretty sure I don't have to watch the previous animes (though it's been said that this was supposedly the third of a trilogy). Well, it was either this or, Nanoha, and from what they say, it'll only ever get better after season one. O_O I don't think I have the patience for that. Maybe next time? 8D?

...and I'm also very much emotionally unstable right now, but I try to ignore it by being insane. ^^ If I do start angsting full time, throw something blunt my way, will ya? xP Dear gods, I hate this teenage angst phase.

Well, I'mma go sleep now. 83 I want to wake up early tomorrow to get things done as soon as I can. (The promise of a hearty breakfast is also alluring but that's just my stomach talking. Hehe.) Plus, I really am still sleepy. *yawns*

Dearest flist,

I sincerely hope this letter--er, entry, finds you in good health. I am currently struggling very hard not to fall asleep at the mo' so forgive me if I suddenly veer off topic or end up writing some kind of blah in the form of letters all bunched up together making no sense at all whatsoever.

I've just finished beta-reading Newt's piece, and what an exciting piece it is. I've not read such a creative and colourful work in a long time so I'm really quite serious in saying that Newt's fanfic is utterly brilliant and I await the actual chapter one with much anticipation. 8D I just hope she wasn't too turned off by my walls of commentary which just had to spout out of nowhere. You know what? Though that's a lot more tiring, I find that doing that is a lot more fun than simply writing a review.

Though I doubt I'll be accepting beta-reading requests from just about anyone popping out of the fanficsphere any time soon. 8D (Not that I'm expecting any. Hardiharhar.) Dear gods, my brain hurts.

Other than that, my day was an utter bore. We had a shortened period today because the teachers will be submitting our marks to the higher ups and need the extra no-students! time to finish their work. Good luck to you, good sirs! And Ma'ams! *salutes*

Also, I must say, today's Computer class was absolutely fun. :3 We did some more html coding and I helped out a chap or two. I still haven't quite figured out how to do tables--the spacing and the border makes me dizzy--but other than that, all was good. ^^ My teacher shushed me for spouting on about shortcuts though. xP Yaargh! Down with them convential methods!

That said, I'd like to concentrate on my sleep--I mean my story now. ^^ Toodles!

Your loving chimpanzee,
A Ghost Dime
(I do so love anagrams.)

P.S.: Now if only I can convince her to do the same for me. >D Muwahahahahaha*cough**choke**suffocates*haha...ha...hahaha...

P.P.S: I miss Read or Die the TV. T_T I must remember to watch it again sometime.

Mmkay, so I really wanted to do something for Remembrance day. Honest. The assembly last Friday touched my heart in a way that I couldn't possibly hope to explain. The songs were great and awe-inspiring. And...it was a most solemn occasion, if you look past the fact that some Filipinos were bloody effin' whispering just behind you. Gods, they make me want to bash some heads against the wall. They're a bloody embarrassment to our country, they are!

Alas, whenever I get excited about something, I seem to lose perception of everything else around me. Which is why I completely forgot about the whole eleventh minute of the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month thing. :( I'm sorry, ok? D:? I was enjoying my little chat with Newt a wee bit too much. Though I did get her picture out of it. >D Two in fact.

I fear I am easily distracted. :(

Seriously. I'm almost finished reading Aoi Hana (Tis great by the way! I've never read such a complex heart-wrenching manga before. 8D Of course, I must admit Hourou Musuko is a lot better in terms of the angst and the delicateness and all but alas, it hasn't been updated yet. T_T) but I haven't finished typing up this entry. How pathetic is that?

Also, I must remind myself to continue on beta-reading Newt's work. 8D Her writing is just so...deliciously edible. Bwahahaha.

And this is the life of Gide Thomas, thus far.

...goodness. I think I wasted today again. O_o I'll probably write a real entry later. For now, behold! A survey that measures my Retardness! 8D I think it's pretty inaccurate though. xP

[  ] You have screamed at an inanimate object for hurting you.
I have punched them on occasion but I never scream at them, the poor things...
[0] You have ran into a glass/screen door
I wasn't paying any attention to my surroundings...(was reading a book)
[  ] you have jumped out of a moving vehicle
Well, no, but I have walked out of a moving vehicle.
[0] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks
Only because there's no one to share the laughter with. ;p
[  ] You have ran into a tree/bush
Nope, but does a sign post count?
[  ] You have been called a blonde
I don't have blonde hair.

 TOTAL: 2

[0] you know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
No. Mostly because I don't give a feckin' shit even if licking an elbow was indeed possible.
[  ] You just tried to lick your elbow
I ain't gullible. Much.
[0] you never knew that the alphabet and twinkle little star had the same tune
See above reason.
[  ] you sang them to make sure
No, but I did remember doing Twinkle Little Star using a flute for a class.
[0] you have tripped on your own feet and fallen
Several times in fact. It just goes to show how athletically inept I am.
[  ]  you have choked on your spit
...I don't think so. But I have choked on my own phlegm. Does that count?

TOTAL: 3


[ ] you have seen matrix and you still don’t get it
I don't remember watching Matrix.
[ ] you type with three fingers or less
No, I do not.
[ ] you have accidentally caught something on fire
I don't play with fire. Though I was near some people when they accidentally burned a piece of paper. O_o My mother stamped on it to make it go away.
[ ] when you were supposed to drink from a straw, it went in your nose
Why would it go to my nose? My nose is clogged with mucous.
[0] you have caught yourself drooling
After I had just woken up, yes.


TOTAL: 1


[ ] you fell asleep during class
Almost, but my resolve is strong.
[ ] sometimes you just stop thinking
...I wish. Sometimes my head just goes on overload when it comes to thoughts.
[0] sometimes when you’re telling a story, you forget what you’re talking about
Mostly because people kept cutting in. Sometimes though, I just feign forgetfulness. ^^
[ ] people often walk away from you
I walk away from people. There's a difference.
[0] you have been told to shut up
Oh yes. I was seven then. And you know what I said? Shut down.

TOTAL: 2


[ ] you have used your fingers to add simple math
I use them like this: 2, 4, 8, 16, 32, 64, 128, 256, 512, 1024...Does that count? Coz I need to keep track of the exponents of 2.
[0] you accidentally ate a bug
Damn people keep putting inedible things in the refrigerator.
[ ] you are taking this test when you’re supposed to do something else
I'm not supposed to be doing anything. Though I do wish I have figured out what I'm supposed to write next for my story. >_>
[0] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it
Yes. And I don't really notice with all of the layers of clothing I wear.
[0] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time
How am I supposed to know I have a back pocket? *sighs*

TOTAL: 3


[  ] you have posted bulletins because you’re scared of what might happen to you
Bulletins? About what exactly?
[0] you break a lot of things
I am rather clumsy. I wonder though how that makes me retarded.
[  ] you tilt your head when you’re confused
Nope. I frown and stroke my beardless chin.
[0] you fell of your chair
And you have the grammar of  nine-year old.
[  ] when you sleep, you try to find shapes from the scratches of the ceiling
Eh? It's bad enough seeing these weird pictures in my mind. And now you're accusing me of staring at the ceiling and looking for more of 'em? Thanks, but no.

TOTAL: 2


[0] you usually say uhm 
Among other things.
[  ] you don’t know what uhm means.
[0] you say what and huh a lot
Only to tease other people who weren't being clear with what they've just said.
[  ] you’re using a calculator to see your score in this test
...who would? It's easy enough to add them in my head.

TOTAL: 2

With a grand total of...15 out of 36. >_>

And you're supposed to multiply this by 3...

I'm 45% retarded? O_o Hmm...well that's...exciting. Though I pride myself more on being weird.

But I do so like to twist my tales to a certain exaggeration. It's a subconscious thing, I'm afraid. Once I open my mouth, I don't know if half the things I say is true though I do try to be as sincere as possible. It's quite the struggle for me, honest.

For example, I love to say these nice things to Tabby because I love making Tabby happy. Plus, it's good to know that my skills are at least of some use in that aspect. Never once have I thought that what I'm saying is actually a different version of the truth. And then I read the first volume of the manga the Wild Ones which is a yakuza Gokusen-like story without the...well, without Yankumi's awesomeness in it. ;3 Anyway, the uh...the girl's main love interest reminds me of...well, me. He's quite the smooth talker and he makes it so that everything he says is sincere. Just by reading that manga, I found myself wondering, am I really like that? Do I say things so honestly, my eyes secretly twinkling with mirth, that I am, in fact, not being honest at all but rather, I am in actuality playing with other people's emotions?

The thought scares me.

That said, school was fun today. ^^ Mostly because none of the damn Grade Nines were around. Math especially. >D I had my temporary seatmate laughing the whole time. 83 Being idiotically deaf has its points after all.

We also watched the movie Shine which was about a famous Australian pianist. Though I find the whole movie to be...a bit disturbing, I enjoyed the musical pieces he had performed. ^^ 'Twas great. *is tone deaf*

That said, I'mma go and do my homework now. >D Even though it's already eleven pm. Hahaha.

My leg burns. Did I mention how much I feckin' hate wall sit ups? Because I do. It just likes to kill my right leg. Damn. S'okay, for today, we had to do these leg work outs for PE. As much as I don't mind what we have to do in that class, I cannot stand any exercise that concerns hurting my poor, poor knee. Alas, I fear that I have a pulled ligament and it's quite the nuisance, especially if I burden my leg too much. >_> The only advice a doctor had told me was to drink Tylenol three times a day for about a week. I'm not that enthusiastic in becoming a druggie. Thank you all the same but no. Drinking all those medicines a long time ago did not cure my cold. And they expect me to trust Tylenol now?

Well, other than that, I've had a rather crappy day. I was late for English class because the bus refused to come on time. (We were waiting for fifteen feckin' minutes. Blinkin' heck, man!) Math was...Math. D8 I wish it was a bit more interesting, that's all I ask. Honest!

...I just miss my old Math teachers. >_> They used to torture us with these little contests and poster-making projects. *sighs*

I also felt really pissed off during Computer class. It had nothing to do with the lesson at hand. Rather, it had something to do with a certain groupmate of mine--we were playing a game--whom I'd rather not talk to for a while. I'm still recovering ok? Can I help it if I have a long memory and it's still painful to see you? Especially up close? Agh. D: I wish for a lot of different things when you're concerned. Sometimes I wish it was easier to talk to you, like before everything had come crashing apart. Sometimes I wish I never knew you. Sometimes I wish you had just accepted me.

I hate being confused.

Of course, I didn't tell her any of that. I just smiled, did my one-liner comedy acts (my seatmate looked at me strangely, LOL), agreed with her that Bill the Bloody Bastard was being a complete bastard, and listened half-heartedly in the game we played.

*sighs* Sometimes, I just want to skip Computer class all together. >_>

Other than that, I've talked with a bunch of people today. ^^ My old classmates in the Philippines had a tiny sembreak so I was talking to all of them, trying to catch up on things. They kept asking me when I would come back (2010) and they kept on talking about a reunion which I can not attend. Sadness.

Oh well, I need to go to sleep now, seeing as I do not want to wake up late tomorrow. I'm taking the early bus this time. >_>

PS: Newt is just so awesome! 8D I absolutely love that list of Brit slang she posted. :3